基督教当代女圣人的信仰失落(转载)

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基督教当代女圣人的信仰失落
  本文由 在美一方 发表于: 倍可亲.美国 ( backchina.com )
  
  (以下的英文部分,为了方便大家,在美初步地翻译了一下。有不准确之处,请大家指出。一切以原文为准。)
  
  请先读读这些话:
  
  耶稣对你有特别的爱。可是对我呢,那沉寂和空虚是如此的巨大以至于视而不得见、听而不得闻。
  (Jesus has a very special love for you. But as for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great that I look and do not see, listen and do not hear.)
  
  主啊,我的上帝。我是谁呢,你为什么要抛弃我?(我这个)你爱的孩子,现在成了你最恨的一个,这个你抛弃了、不再想要、不再爱的孩子。我呼喊、我挣扎、我需求,但是那儿没有一位给予我答案,没有一位让我可以倚靠,没有,没有一个!孤独。我的信仰在哪儿?即使在内心深处,那儿也什么都没有,只有空虚和黑暗。我的上帝,这个无名的痛楚是多么地令人痛苦。我没有了信仰,我不敢说出那些堆积在我内心的话语和想法,这些想法让我陷入无以名状的巨大痛楚。
  (Lord, my God, who am I that You should forsake me? The Child of your Love - and now become as the most hated one - the one - You have thrown away as unwanted - unloved. I call, I cling, I want – and there is no One to answer - no One on Whom I can cling - no, No One. – Alone ... Where is my Faith - even deep down right in there is nothing, but emptiness & darkness - My God - how painful is this unknown pain - I have no Faith - I dare not utter the words & thoughts that crowd in my heart - & make me suffer untold agony.)
  
  这么多没有答案的问题存在,我惧怕去揭示他们——因为这是亵渎,如果有上帝,请饶恕我。当我试图就这些想法询问上天,那儿只有可咒的沉寂,以至这些疑问又像锋利的刀子一样回到我这里,刺伤我的完整的灵魂。我被告知上帝是爱我的,可是现实中的黑暗、冷酷和空虚是如此之大,没有什么能抚慰我的心灵。我不顾一切地把自己交付给了耶稣圣心的召唤,我做错什么了吗?
  (So many unanswered questions live within me afraid to uncover them - because of the blasphemy – If there be God, please forgive me. When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven, there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives and hurt my very soul. I am told God loves me, and yet the reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. Did I make a mistake in surrendering blindly to the Call of the Sacred Heart?)
  
  
  从这些话里,你读到了什么?平安喜乐?全身心交付给上帝以后的释然和轻松?对上帝的爱?作者感受到上帝的爱因而感恩?
  
  你能想象得到这是一个曾经告诉别人她“天天都能看到耶稣”的人说的话吗?
  
  没错儿,这是Mother Teresa的原话,是私下写给她的忏悔牧师等的。新近出版的Mother Teresa: Come be My Light发表了这些她从未公开的私人信件。昨晚读了《时代》上的报道以后,深为震惊。有三点感想。
  
  1 这么孤独的一个扭曲了的灵魂,不如一般人喜乐平安;
  
  2 如果她内心的真实是这样的,那她告诉别人天天能看到耶稣就是说谎。我当然很理解也很同情她内心的付出一切的那种狂热的追求和没有得到之下的失望和痛苦,但我鄙视说谎的人;
  
  3 虽然恨她虚伪骗人,但是读到她无助的呼喊和哭泣,更多的还是可怜她,像可怜贞德一样。
  
  
  这里是另外一个例子让我们更清楚地看清特雷莎内心和外表的不一致以及她的处世原则。
  
  她说:Christ in our hearts, Christ in the poor we meet, Christ in the smile we give and in the smile that we receive.
  
  她还说:“就让我们成为神慈爱的活见证:面容中有慈爱、目光中有慈爱、笑容中有慈爱、亲切问安中有慈爱。在贫民窟中,我们对穷苦大众而言,就是神恩慈的光。我们对小孩子、贫困者,和所有受苦和孤单的人,都要常常展露笑容。让他们不但得到你的关怀,也感受得到你的爱心。… 那么就让我们从相互微笑来开始我们爱的传播吧。… 所以,让我们见面时彼此微笑致意。微笑是爱的开端。一旦我们彼此有了爱心,我们就要去做一些事情。”
  
  当然上面那都是公开发表的演讲/文章。那么私下里她怎么说?
  
  The smile is a mask or a cloak that covers everything.
  (那微笑是掩盖一切的面具和斗篷)
  
  
  以下是来自《时代》报道的另几个要点:
  
  “The letters, many of them preserved against her wishes (she had requested that they be destroyed but was overruled by her church), reveal that for the last nearly half-century of her life she felt no presence of God whatsoever—or, as the book’s compliler and editor, the Rev. Brian Kolodiejchuk, writes, “neither in her heart or in the eucharist”.
  (这些信件揭示了在她生命的最后近半个世纪里,她无论如何没有感觉到上帝的存在,无论是在她心里还是在领受圣餐的时候。)
  
  She compares the experience to hell and at one point says it has driven her to doubt the existence of heaven and even of God.”
  (她将[这些痛苦体验]比喻成地狱,并且说这驱使她怀疑天堂的存在,甚至怀疑上帝的存在。)
  
  书的作者将一封这样的信读给她的Missionaries of Charity的修女听,她们(惊讶地)嘴巴都合不拢了。
  
  Christopher Hitchens,曾经发表过对特雷莎修女的质疑的人,说到:She was no more exempt from the realization that religion is a human fabrication than any other person, and that her attempted cure was more and more professions of faith could only have deepened the pit that she dug for herself.
  (她和其他人一样,不免认识到宗教是人类的臆造。她试图通过越来越多的信仰实践来打消这种想法,其结果是把她自己挖的洞越凿越深。)
  
  全文可见
  http://news.yahoo.com/s/time/20070823/wl_time/motherteresascrisisoffaith

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作者:默灵 时间:2007-09-13 15:09:11
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  那件事并非轻易,如同我们期待和理解到的那样轻易。遗憾的是,往往我们只能做轻易的期待和理解。(个人看法)
作者:不再掩饰 时间:2007-09-14 21:34:45
  我觉得很正常,体现了信与不信的挣扎.信仰不是一了百了,一信就什么烦恼都没有了.这些资料无损于特雷莎修女的光辉形象,反而使她更象一个活生生的人.
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